December 19, 2010

As It Happens...

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As it happens... we wait. We do our part and then it's someone else's turn. Sometimes there's a volley of reciprocated emails and excitement rises so we begin to plan and envision and... dare I say, consider how we'll spend/use the money!

The project is a big one... a very, very big one in my world of relativity. The comments have been encouraging and agreeable... we see eye to eye. We understand exactly what needs to be done. The reward would be contractually guaranteed with half up front so no concern there.

Then, a slowing of banter... then apologies and reassurance that all is still a go. But then another lag, but I know it's a busy time for all concerned so I wait.

Now I begin to think the job is too big for me. Maybe another artist (or two) are leading the pack and I find myself rooting for them to win the race. I remember reading that Obama the Candidate said that first he was afraid he wouldn't win, and then he was afraid he would. That wraps how I feel. I know I could do it but it would be a very difficult task...

That said... the project has/had certain specifics that I've given a lot of thought to... how I would paint in that direction while maintaining the geometric elements that attracted them to my work in the first place. The amount of attention I've given this... to the point of slowing serious attention to other works in progress... has possibly opened a door to a new, energized direction without really leaving anything behind. So whether or not the project goes through, good will have come of the dalliance.

9 comments:

Patty Oblack said...

As a person who has been in this type of situation, I wish you all the best & hope the dream comes true. The arts, including the music career of my son-n-law is such a slippery slope. Money as in the Pink Floyd song, or as in Cabaret....does make the world go round. Talent is never enough. But you have it, Karen! I wish you all the best & the possibility of a much better yr. in 2011.
xox
P

Karen Jacobs said...

Thanks, Patty... this is so typical of life, isn't it? Dreams and slippery slopes. Good luck to you and your son-in-law in the new year. Be ready for whatever cause you just never know!

Rebecca Crowell said...

Yes--I too have been through that ebb and flow of interest and communication, and in the lull wondering if I even want to take on a project that is so time consuming and demanding. I always feel conflicted about accepting commissions because I know it pulls me away from other work, and seems so blatantly about just getting a paycheck...but I realize too that it is an opportunity and wonderful to have my work so desired. And as you say, creative doors may open, even in the contemplation of the project. The only answer for me is to do what I can to make things happen, then figure I'm OK with whatever ensues. "If it's meant to be...etc."

Karen Jacobs said...

Exactly, Rebecca. Without the push/pull of commissions the process would be much easier, but possibly less challenging.

CMC said...

I can only add what they others have said about this. I DO know that feeling of excitement and then trepidation if it takes too long to have to consider it all.

whatever happens ...you are up to it I have no doubt.

Martha Marshall said...

Yep, been there too. Even to the place where I was secretly relieved that it didn't materialize. But isn't it interesting that each one of these experiences brings something of value? Maybe a new way of looking at things that you hadn't considered.

And one way or the other, interesting doors will continue to open.

M.A.H. said...

I had 2 shows scheduled for 2011 cancel this month due to lack of funding and artworld politics that had nothing to do with me. Not nearly the same as a mega money project, but still, I'm amazed at how mellow I've become at handling disappointing news. Hoping all goes well for you.

Karen Jacobs said...

Considering there's been more dead time I think it's kaput. Sorry about the two cancellations, M.A., mellow is the way to go...

cathsheard said...

I'm sorry this seems to have fallen through - the roller coaster of emotions can be exhausting. I'll be interested to see what happens when the new ideas have fermented for a bit longer.