October 21, 2008

3 AM!

Totally ridiculous time to be up... but tired as I know the ole bod is, the mind swirls with reasonable, focused thoughts. Some that have to do with painting... fixing a problem, investigating a new direction, determination to get on with whatever it is I'm putting off.

Seems of late I wake up realizing I've composed an entire blog entry... leaving only the accompanying image to be decided. But funny thing, somewhere between feet hitting floor, toilet flushing and assuming the position at the keyboard, the mental blog composition vanishes, leaving only hazy traces of no obvious value.

This time it has something to do with: "If you have an urgent job to be done, ask a busy person to do it." Silly me! A truism if there ever was one... the less I have to do, the harder it is to do anything! I'm thinking on it...

That thought somehow merged with: "He who is his own lawyer teacher has a fool for a client student." My super-keen early morning mind is dealing with the frustrating challenges I set up for myself... humps I know I'll get over and laugh when I look back, but currently take all my waking energy to confront. Like getting a new computer set up and using at least 10% of it's talents... and in particular, learning what those talents are when dealing with this unknown iMac.

So then, still in bed and not fully awake, mind you... I'm feeling sorry for myself because of all the people I've known who could have taught me so much had I not been so hardheaded, preferring to do it myself. Art... computers... yadda-yadda...

But flip side... I think of all the people I've known who didn't want to know anything more... didn't dare challenge themselves... afraid, perhaps, of being thought a fool...

I need to go back to bed... no image for this blog entry... sorry...

2 comments:

self taught artist said...

this is maddening stuff isn't it? I feel for you, I've heard mac's are easier better etc but you aren't the only person I've heard screaming in frustration about switching from windows to mac and being stunned!
good luck, sounds like a steep curve :(

Annie B said...

Hi KJ. I feel for you too. I've never switched platforms, but even just updating from one machine to another and managing all the new software and peripherals that nobody tells you you'll need can be a nightmare. I've dreaded every upgrade since 1988.

But I know that if I stop upgrading, it's all over. I'll become one of those people you wrote about who don't want to know anything more. I do want to know more, but I always kick and scream when leaving the comfort of the Known & Mastered.

Hope you're getting some sleep!